There are no words

Have you ever really tried your best and hardest to do something that in your very core, your bones you felt was the right thing to do and have it fall to crap?

Example. No secret on the supply runs to Ferret’s Dream House. Count of surrenders from the farm is 800 plus. No secret I use priceline.com for rentals since the shelter’s vehicle is a wonder ride.

Had a couple people say they have items to send, they went shopping for them to help fill the van. Cool.

So I do my priceline.com thing, got a rental. Things are fine so far. Went this morning and go to pick up the mini van. They said nope. Will not do it. I ask why? They say, that is a debit card. I said, no this is a credit card. A Pay Pal credit card. The only thing we use for rentals.

They refused to take it. (National/Alamo car rental) spoke to the manager. Even though there has been a history that they accessed from the shelter renting from them with the same exact card, they said no. Now, the young woman says, let me get the manager, the manager comes out, says no, he will not over ride it. I ask what has changed since the last rental? He says nothing. (We are talking 72 hours here folks)

He says it is priceline.com’s fault. They say it is Alamo/National’s issue. Priceline will issue a refund THIS time, but charge the shelter $25 for a cancellation fee.

Now, I called the headquarters of Alamo/National. Moreover, they tell me, since the credit card is not tied to a bank account they will not take it. Doesn't that make it a debit card then? Moreover, if that is the case, they do not accept debit cards. HUH???? They would not take the shelter’s debit card either.

I have really been trying hard to do the right things. No one will ever understand what I am feeling right now. I am so frustrated.

How many times do you ever hear of over 800 animals being surrendered to ONE shelter?? I mean really. How many times do you hear that shelters are trying to help each other??

Seriously, I have been trying really hard to get help from Northern Ohio for this. Channel 19 was going to come out and do a story, last Tuesday, 10 AM. Cool I thought. Maybe people will start to realize that this is serious. Got a call a few minutes before they were to be here, they had lots of call offs, can we do this at 11? Sure. Got a call right before 11, too many call offs, can we do this tomorrow? Well, I am going to Lynx, Ohio tomorrow with the supplies I have, and will not be back until Thursday. Ok, let’s do it Friday 11 AM. Friday, 11 AM, got a call about 15 minutes before they are to be here, and there are too many call offs. I am not even going to schedule it again. We will work it in sometime.

It is the same few people all of the time that step up to help. When I was going through cancer treatments Lori, was the first person to step up and say, let me take some of the ferrets in your shelter to help lighten the load. We had 60 plus. She took 35. Through the years, she has been there for this shelter. It is only right we are there for here.

The number of animals itself is staggering. 800 plus. And trying to come up with just some help seems impossible.

Coming up with help for this shelter is impossible. Why do I think it would be different just because there are so many?

A chance to work together!! A chance to help one another! A chance to put differences behind us for the good of some helpless animals!!

Does this shelter help other shelters and people? Yes, we do. Doesn’t matter what type of animal, if we can we help. We donate.

Right now I am very frustrated, and in a very dark place. We try not to ask for help too much, we try to do the right things, we try to help others.

Well, time to go find another wall to bash my skull against. The one I have been bashing my skull against it messy. I keep bashing my skull to find answers, but do not find any, and the skull will not crack.

Oh yeah, sorry, this is the Director’s Corner. My space to vent, and post news, and I will not apologize or change anything I have said in the past or will say in the future.